It used to be a joke. I would say "you, I don't hate"
to people I really liked. And if I really liked something it was "
adequate". Anyone I really hated I would never speak to unless absolutely necessary. Love and hate are active emotions requiring effort and a plan. Indifference is much more effective, much easier, much more final. So when someone I REALLY care about is indifferent to me it hurts. I don't care for many people. I feel left out and somehow in the wrong. I know I haven't directly hurt this person. My guess is that I simply don't fit into their current whirling social galaxy. I must be old hat, a fond yet forgotten thing of the past. I "hate" feeling this way. I start becoming indifferent and uncaring. The mind begins to search for ways to show this indifference which is contradictory-focused and calculated indifference. "I'll show them who is indifferent!" Sad isn't it.
It used to be a joke. I would say "you, I don't hate" to people I really liked. And if I really liked something it was "adequate". Anyone I really hated I would never speak to unless absolutely necessary. Love and hate are active emotions requiring effort and a plan. Indifference is much more effective, much easier, much more final. So when someone I REALLY care about is indifferent to me it hurts. I don't care for many people. I feel left out and somehow in the wrong. I know I haven't directly hurt this person. My guess is that I simply don't fit into their current whirling social galaxy. I must be old hat, a fond yet forgotten thing of the past. I "hate" feeling this way. I start becoming indifferent and uncaring. The mind begins to search for ways to show this indifference which is contradictory-focused and calculated indifference. "I'll show them who is indifferent!" Sad isn't it.
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