Brand New Start!
I have been working out consistently for almost two months now. No smoking and as close to a vegetarian diet as I can get. Still eating wild caught fish and shrimp, but there is guilt. No more online games either. No TV, I have been off the "most dangerous drug on the planet" for a few years now.I am always tired and never bored. I avoid negativity at all costs. Reading and writing are now the substance of my life and soon volunteering for the library and for some politicians will round out the schedule. This fall I will be a STUDENT AGAIN!!!!!
If you haven't made that jump, that seemingly impossible course correction you know you need, don't give up hope. For me it was gradual. It started with not hating myself. That didn't come overnight but a big step came at age 30. It was as if I dropped a huge suitcase full of neutronium bricks. Getting out of the restaurant business was BIG. I found out I could do almost anything and didn't HAVE to be in a kitchen or in a dining room. The next step was removing alcohol from my diet. No more hangovers, no more suicidal thoughts, no more depression, no more guilt, no more self destruction. Finally I set myself to get physically fit and finishing my degree. That is my anchor right now. Completion!!!
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Welcomw to the rest of your life!
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